Have you ever watched the movie “Independence Day”? One of the key songs you hear in features the words: It’s the end of the world as we know it. While we are not being attacked by aliens determined to exterminate us, right now it feels like end times.
As I sit here composing this post, I am struck by how much our lives have changed and will change in the future.
- For instance, there is no toilet paper. Who would have thought that would be one of the things that would be completely wiped out from store shelves.
- Lysol and other cleaning liquids are as scarce as can be.
- I have been furloughed from my job for an undetermined amount of time.
- Our #1 home improvement project we needed to get done is now suspended indefinitely.
But those are not the most pressing things. Yes, it is scary to know that I don’t know when I will be able to return to work. At the same time, I am home with my family and can make sure we don’t expose ourselves. They are SO important to me!(Looking at this picture from 2016 makes me smile)
Every time I watch the TV and see the number of deaths rising, my heart aches. For those we have lost, for the family members going through this horrific, painful experience. I get angry at those that are not heeding the warning of experts.
I am scared for the doctors and nurses and the first responders that are on the front lines. I pray for the employees in the grocery stores and other life-sustaining establishments can remain safe. I am frightened that they healthcare personnel may run out of safety equipment and supplies they need to care for those that are sick or may become sick.
I had a scare the other day that I am not likely to forget(nor will the people that were directly involved), but thanks to a volunteer fireman who happens to be a neighbor, those that were involved were safe and unharmed.
I am having a hard time not giving into the feelings of fear I am dealing with in my heart. There are times I hate my medical knowledge, that it stokes the depths of my fears even more. I have seen things, endured things, and it scares the s&#! out of me that someone I love dearly could experience this.
So I am trying to take things a day at a time. And keeping myself busy. And praying. And trying to fight these feelings of fear.
I am doing my best to play my part. I have only been to the stores for the things we need to eat. I am doing menu planning and deliberate grocery shopping so that we only need to go out once or twice a week for milk, maybe some eggs too. I have taken the time to clean out our pantry so I am only buying what we absolutely need.
On the upside of things, here are a few positives:
- My fridge has never been cleaner or more organized
- There are clean towels in the linen closet so no one drip dries
- I have been able to work on some landing pages for my blog
- I will be getting my Spring cleaning done before Fall
- I will be using my exercise DVDs to keep myself moving
- I will be decluttering my drawers and closets to be able to donate unneeded clothing for those that may need it
Life will be so different over the months(and maybe even years). But maybe it will give us all a chance to rethink life, home, love, & more. I pray that you all stay safe. I pray that you will heed the warnings about only going out for the things you need. I pray that you are kind to the workers you encounter. I pray that you can have a clear mind and mental health.
And I pray that you always say I LOVE YOU.
Until next time,