Happy Mother’s Day to ALL the Moms out in the world. It is almost hard to believe that it is here already. The past few months and last year were probably the hardest in a long time. So I am starting a new “diary” type post called From The Heart.
Let’s face it, we have all been through some kind of trauma over the past year. Like right now. The horror that is COVID-19. It seems like that is all we are hearing these days. Many people have been tragically lost to this horrible virus.
Many will be facing this Mother’s Day as the first time without their Mother/Wife/Aunt. My heart aches and breaks for you. This is my second Mother’s Day without mine. While she wasn’t lost to this crazy outbreak, it is a loss all the same.
So how am I spending this Mother’s Day? Sleeping in. Watching TV. Having dinner picked up curbside by my family. Reading. Candy Crush.
Pretty much anyway I want to.
I am also selfishly mourning the loss of a trip next weekend to Jamaica to celebrate our 23rd anniversary. I know that I am lucky in the fact that I have not lost anyone I love to this virus. I am grateful for that. But my heart still aches.
We rescheduled our trip for later this year. Truthfully, I don’t believe it is going to happen, but it doesn’t stop me from trying to believe that we will get there. Both of our boys are in college now. We made the decision that we were going to travel a bit more. Apparently the world has other plans.
We also have to cancel our annual trip to Wildwood NJ. That one really hurts, as it is the trip that we go on with my in-laws. We walk the Boardwalk, eat our favorite foods, nap. But most importantly, we are together.
Again, in the grand scheme of things, a lost trip is nothing compared to the other things going on in the world.
I am one of the many out there that is currently out of work because of COVID-19. It is humbling and scary. Once our state reopens I should be going back to my current job. Let’s just say that I worry. The thought of not going back to my position as a bookseller terrifies the heck out of me.
So I lay awake half the time in panic mode. The crazy worst-case-scenario nights. The “What-Ifs”. I think the reason I am so stressed out is that I don’t sleep well worrying. I know things are going to happen regardless of the amount of time I spend thinking about it. But it doesn’t stop me from going there.
So now that I have poured out some of my fears, how about you? How are you handling the social distancing? Do you feel cut off from the world? Or are you like me, and feel comforted by being hunkered down with the family?
Let’s discuss it. Leave a comment below about how you are surviving this period of time.
This man is the reason I am getting through this period. I admit, the silver lining in this situation is the amount of time we are spending together. And it has given me a new appreciation for how hard he works. His work ethic. His dedication. I could learn a lot from him!
So now we have come to the point where we need to figure out what a new “normal” is going to be. What do we do when we are back in the world to protect ourselves. To help one another. To create a normal that all of us can coexist in. Is it possible? I guess we will find out. Until next time, be safe.